Mental Health

Why I write

I used to hate writing. As a blogger, Journalism student, and writer for the college paper, it’s really ironic but it’s the truth. I hated writing, and I never thought I’d become a writer.

Apparently, I was always good at writing. Back in high school, everyone would say I was a good writer. They kept encouraging me to write more and kept telling me to become a writer. I admit, I knew I was good but I wasn’t trying to be because I actually hated writing. I never, ever saw myself as a writer.

Of course that all changed.  I met my best friend when she was in the program I’m in now. After one in a half years of observing her, as well as others in the program, and being a part of their assignments, I realized that I wanted to be like them and do the things they were doing. So I went from being a psychology major to the Journalism program.

There are still things I hate about writing. I hate the physical aspect of typing into a computer. I’d have so much to write but typing can get tiring for me.

I hate people. Well my anxiety hates people. But in order to have a complete story, I have to actually talk to people.

I hate waiting and I hate deadlines. I hate waiting for responses when my deadline was yesterday. I get that people get busy and have more important things to do, my teachers understand that too. But I’m not a patient person, and I run out of it a lot. I have this thing where I can’t even start a story until I have all my information and interviews done. Maybe that’s something I should work on.

Last but not least…THE BLANK PAGE! I hate it. Even the idea of sitting down in front of a computer is horrible for me. It takes a lot of mental preparation for me to even open up a blank word document. The blank page can drive me crazy sometimes.

I know how powerful words are and how they can touch someone deeply. I know that from personal experience – Demi Lovato’s words mean so much to me and have saved me through a lot of hard times. Seeing her help and inspire many people just through her words, inspired me to do the same. I’ve had people tell me that one of my articles or blog posts have helped them. It has made them feel like they’re not alone. That is the reason for why I do what I do everyday. That, and to raise awareness and to advocate for the people who might be too scared to speak up for themselves. I always say if I can help at least one person then it’s worth all the work.

I know that I won’t always be assigned “helpful, inspirational” stories and that’s okay. But my main goal as a writer is to educate and help people through my writing.

Stay strong lovelies <3




Jessica Victoria
<p>Jessica Victoria, 24, is a writer and advocate for mental health, disability and LGBTQ+. She uses her personal experiences and knowledge to help and educate others.</p>

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